The ladder and the trains

i just can't reach that ladder

the two tracks stretch all the way to a light at both sides of the tunnel and freedom

and yet i am trapped, in the middle, in the only gap in the wall where i can be safe

for the trains always come, without end, without mercy, all day, all night

all i can do is stay here

the trains go by too fast to grab on to and they would just tear me apart against the walls

each end of the tunnel is too far to run to before yet another train comes

and there is a ladder above me

but i just can't reach that ladder

it's too far up, too far out of reach, nothing to stand on, nothing to help me, i've tried

so many times i have tried and it continues to mock me, i see another way out above

but i just can't reach that ladder

so i'm stuck here as the trains continue to pass by without end, without mercy

sometimes there is a small delay but i dare not attempt it for the train will come 

i cannot reach the end in time before yet another train speeds down the track

if only i could reach that ladder

if only i could stop the trains

if only i could get on a train

if only there was another way out

but there is not so i am stuck here for eternity, trapped in my own personal hell

i have yelled for help so loud that i have silenced the noise of the trains by comparison

but there is no way out, no escape, none that i can reach or get to in time 

why can't i reach that ladder